if there is a site you can contact or a number you can call, where someone will just sit and be there with you over the net or on the phone when you're at that very last teeny piece of your rope? See I am not afraid of the act or the aftermath. I'm just so scared to be alone while I wait for the finish to what I will have started. I could call the crisis line or suicide line or even an aquaintance. But then if they ask the right question(s) then I'd have to answer truthfully. I dont want to be saved, I just dont want to be alone. I have been alone for so long and will be for an eternity, I just dont want to be alone then.