thanks everyone. the feelings have subsided somewhat. i went to speak to a practice nurse at my local doctors surgery (who used to do exposure therapy with me many years ago for my health anxiety) i told her how i had been feeling and she was very understanding. she also said if ever i were feeling that way again i could go and see her. (useful as its only 2 mins walk away)
i don't know if i will, but it helped just to open that door and always have the option. i am also considering going back into therapy. although my money is limited at the moment.
I Hope you are doing alright. I hope you find some help.
If you need to vent something, usually I am good at giving advice or just pm me if you are feeling down. I think that therapy really helps people. I haven't gone to therapy in a year and it has been tricky, you need someone who you can talk to- but try not to get too deep into things beecause you don't want to be emotionally dependent.I have noticed that when I am feeling anxious it is good to let go,
Go for a walk. Turn off the music and meditate- just be one with your thoughts and try and rise above whatever it is that's keeping you down.
But the best things are friends. I had an old friend talk with me yesterday after meeting someone online, who was really rude, and she talked me out of feeling suicidal. She is getting her nursing degree but she sometimes is like a therapist.
I know that without money, the internet can be a faulty resource. Maybe a social network? Some way to get your feelings out. Even group therapy?
Do you pray? that helps me? I am a Catholic, and that has helped in many ways just for the social part, and for the kindness and self-sacrifice for others.
Are you dependent on your paren'ts insurance? If you were that would help you pay for a psychologist or therapist. I am considering a psychologist because they analyze things deeper. But therapists will look at things and mine taught me to see the bright side- although she seemed to do that too much, like wasting my money in ways, because all she talked about was the positive side of things. haha. Well it helped, but you know what I mean.
:biggrin: Peace,
And I hope you feel better. Although my random advice isn't always the best, you need to find someone who is good. Like I said, if you can't afford a therapist- a good friend is always the best to lean on.
~Wallflower