The main reason for my depression is how I look. I am overweight - which I know a lot of people are, but I now think even if I were to lose the weight my depression would improve but only slightly. I want to be beautiful. Supermodel beautiful, one part of my mind tells myself that is ridiculous and you are what you were born with - but the other half tells me I can fix all of that to become the best version of me there is. I was actually looking at some pictures of my friend and her friends on a night out and judging them so harshly, and it was really silly things like "oh my God, her eye brows weren't plucked" and "how can anybody leave the house with yellow teeth like that" (they're smokers) and "how can she not have perfectly groomed hair/how can you go outside with no make up on/why are her nails not done/why are her clothes so boring". All of which is ridiculous because MOST people look regular and normal, MOST people do not look like celebrities. I don't know why I feel this way but I hate it.