Growing up, I was neglected and taught not to be close to my relatives. Through time, I've lost all my relatives. My mom is the last relative I can be around. Even she left my dad and me when I was on Disability for Bipolar Disorder. I was left to care for my dying invalid father. Suffice it to say, I feel like I can never be close to anyone. I want to fall in love, but I can't stand the thought of risking my heart. Any ideas?