I'm just really confused. I travel around the internet, looking everywhere to find so many people depressed about college, hating it so much, caused them so much stress and many to ultimately commit suicide. And then I also see many more people that love college, that its the time of their lives, they are away from their parents, they can truly live and be happy.
I always seem to see the latter when I walk around my very large university of over 30,000 students and it really makes me very angry, frustrated and many times, I feel like killing them, hurting them in a very violent way. I've had several thoughts about killing as many students I could and causing as much destruction and mayhem as I could, though I'm sure I could never ever ever carry it out, but just the thought of all this frigtens me and anyone else I talk to about it. :sad:
There's also the people that work so extremely hard to get into college and then trying to stay in it because they have a very hard time scrounging up money for tuition, books, etc. There are some that would kill to be in my position of being a college student and I just always feel like the only one that hates it there so much. To me, its pure hell but to many more, its pure paradise and a place where many others desperately want to go to so badly.
I suppose one reason I hate it so much is because I think I've been wrongly raised by my parents, they mean very well and tried their hardest to raise a rebellious, rude, antisocial, lazy, opposing virtually everything a normal person my age would, etc. But mainly, I feel they sheltered me far too much and I feel extremely immature compared to the other students. For example, I would much, much rather hang out with elementary and middle school students and be their friend than with high school and college students, really weird isn't it? I just don't like being around people my age for instance and of course college is going to be swarming with them. :dry:
I'm also getting extremely poor grades there and thats unfortunately, mainly due to me, I spend almost all of my time on the computer and internet, I am positively addicted, skipping so many of my classes which my parents are paying hundreds to thousands for and not reading my books which my parents spent a fortune on to help me get an education and a decent paying job which I am all wasting away and taking for granted, which is killing me inside. :sad:
I must be the only one at my university with absolutely no friends and getting piss poor grades, I seriously feel like the biggest loser there, if they had a loser contest, I would easily be in the top position. :sad: For example, I lost my academic scholarship there due to my piss poor grades and removed myself from the "Honors College" there, for the smart kids. I dunno who was stupider, me for accepting their invitation or them for inviting a total loser like me to join them. I just spent all my time all alone in my apartment room on the computer. That sounds pretty pathetic to most, but I don't like being around people at all, don't want to join any clubs or organizations or anything, why the hell am I so different from everyone!? I know its not right to blame others all the time, but I do blame my parents for raising me wrong and moving around so much so I could experience the extreme pain and tramua of moving and losing my dear friends, I'm one of those guys that really cannot get used to change and adjusting is very difficult for me to a new environment.
How many here are currently in college/university and are miserable because of it? It would be nice if I could see some miserable students from my own university, but they probably are also like me, they hide their pain and misery as best they can when they are in public and in the classrooms and break down in tears once they reach their home. :sad:
Sorry for my long boring rant and thanks to everybody that reads it and replies. :smile:
I always seem to see the latter when I walk around my very large university of over 30,000 students and it really makes me very angry, frustrated and many times, I feel like killing them, hurting them in a very violent way. I've had several thoughts about killing as many students I could and causing as much destruction and mayhem as I could, though I'm sure I could never ever ever carry it out, but just the thought of all this frigtens me and anyone else I talk to about it. :sad:
There's also the people that work so extremely hard to get into college and then trying to stay in it because they have a very hard time scrounging up money for tuition, books, etc. There are some that would kill to be in my position of being a college student and I just always feel like the only one that hates it there so much. To me, its pure hell but to many more, its pure paradise and a place where many others desperately want to go to so badly.
I suppose one reason I hate it so much is because I think I've been wrongly raised by my parents, they mean very well and tried their hardest to raise a rebellious, rude, antisocial, lazy, opposing virtually everything a normal person my age would, etc. But mainly, I feel they sheltered me far too much and I feel extremely immature compared to the other students. For example, I would much, much rather hang out with elementary and middle school students and be their friend than with high school and college students, really weird isn't it? I just don't like being around people my age for instance and of course college is going to be swarming with them. :dry:
I'm also getting extremely poor grades there and thats unfortunately, mainly due to me, I spend almost all of my time on the computer and internet, I am positively addicted, skipping so many of my classes which my parents are paying hundreds to thousands for and not reading my books which my parents spent a fortune on to help me get an education and a decent paying job which I am all wasting away and taking for granted, which is killing me inside. :sad:
I must be the only one at my university with absolutely no friends and getting piss poor grades, I seriously feel like the biggest loser there, if they had a loser contest, I would easily be in the top position. :sad: For example, I lost my academic scholarship there due to my piss poor grades and removed myself from the "Honors College" there, for the smart kids. I dunno who was stupider, me for accepting their invitation or them for inviting a total loser like me to join them. I just spent all my time all alone in my apartment room on the computer. That sounds pretty pathetic to most, but I don't like being around people at all, don't want to join any clubs or organizations or anything, why the hell am I so different from everyone!? I know its not right to blame others all the time, but I do blame my parents for raising me wrong and moving around so much so I could experience the extreme pain and tramua of moving and losing my dear friends, I'm one of those guys that really cannot get used to change and adjusting is very difficult for me to a new environment.
How many here are currently in college/university and are miserable because of it? It would be nice if I could see some miserable students from my own university, but they probably are also like me, they hide their pain and misery as best they can when they are in public and in the classrooms and break down in tears once they reach their home. :sad:
Sorry for my long boring rant and thanks to everybody that reads it and replies. :smile:
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