May seems to be the time of year when I go nuts. I've been inpatient 3 times on Mother's Day in the last few years. Therapist suggested hospital Thursday. I don't understand why I am so hopeless all of a sudden. I mean I have been through a lot of med changes but this is of epic proportions. I really don't want to be hospitalized again as it does no good for me. Ah I just dunno. Sometimes staying alive is such work.