I know, weird question But bear with me. I rather recently realized that casual sex and, in particular, casual fetish sex are things that I turn to as a self-harming coping skill. Before, I always thought of myself as 'open-minded' and 'free' sexually.....but recently I realized that it is/was simply a way that I found a release similar to the release I sought when I would cut on myself. I figured this out due to the fact my most recent relapse into anxiety and depression (the first relapse in YEARS) is the first relapse since I have been married (or even in my dating relationship with my now-husband) and my compulsions for casual sex came on full force despite a loving and sexually satisfying relationship with my husband. This realization really hit me in the face....I am now viewing so many past activities differently and trying to figure out where the line of healthy sexual thoughts/actions and compulsive behavior begins. I am talking to my psychologist about this but would love to have someone who actually knows what I feel because they have felt it themselves to chime in here. Anyone have any similar struggles and/or suggestions? Thanks!