Is it usual to sometimes just feel a sort of low-level fear, is that what is meant by existential angst? A sort of inability to get ahold of your life and then the accompanying guilt and worry that goes with that... is that the 'usual' human condition, or is it not? It seems so difficult to know or understand what is normal. Or if there is such a thing as normal. Or even if normal is something one should try to aspire to (taking that it exists in the first place). Sometimes the smallest things seem like 'everest-conquering' challenges. It is all in my head but I do wonder WHY my head is like that, in the first place. Other people presumably don't find it a massive challenge to go down the street and buy a pint of milk, most of the time I don't either, so why is it that sometimes it just all seems ==== or maybe a better way to put it is, why do I build up a sort of internal Everest that needs to be conquered before I can even get to the stage of walking down the street to get a pint of milk? Is that self-discipline that is missing? Or what they call "will". Mind over matter? It can't be that because the problem IS the mind, not the matter. Ah well, never mind. Drugs are probably the answer - but not my choice so hmmmm we'll see. A life half-lived, isn't that what they say?