Anyone else just sick and tired of life?

ive been trying so hard to socialize and improve my life but it all seems like nothings changing or getting better. ive made few friends that are girls but i hate trying so hard. I just wish someone would give me a little comfort and relief or just the slitest feeling of real love again.

anyone else..?:mellow:

 

I feel like this too.

You have started to make friends so that is a step forward.

 

I must say I'm rather sick and tired of life, just waiting for it to be over really :unsure:

You say you're sick of trying so hard, but aren't the results worth it?

 

Yeah... a bit off the topic but I think a lot of people without depression dont understand the physical symptoms of it and how much effort it take to do some seemingly simple things like socialise. I concur with your thoughts though...I wish I had some good advice to give you. The only thing I can offer is that its really good your going out there and sociallising even if it is draining. I believe one of the biggest dangers when having depression is inactivity. Keep going out and hanging out with your friends dont give up cause lets face it, things are more likely to improve of your trying to have fun and trying to socialise rather then not, right? Hope things improve!

 

Were it up to me, the blinds would be closed and I would spend my days in bed, or pissing away my time doing nothing.

Life is either boring, or just way too much. I know what you're saying. I can feel my grades slipping already. I want to care about everything, but it's just too much effort and I'm out of gas.

 

I know how you feel man. I feel like I probobly could have a better social standing but I really don't feel like trying so hard over somthing that can be shattered in an instant.

Also I seem to have terrible trust issues. Even with the only friend I have left I still don't trust him or confide with him. I feel like hes making fun of me behind my back or somthing. I want to talk with him about how I feel but I don't think he would care or even understand.

I even met a girl that was funny, had a great personality, and was pretty cute and she even gave me her number but I feel like its just 1 big joke and she hates me. I just feel overly paranoid I guess.

 

I dont know if the results are worth it, like what Needing Reason said it can be shattered so quickly and things can go back to like nothing happened and yeah but i dont feel like digging back to deeper reasons. All i can do is keep trying. Thanks for feedback.

 

hell yes im tired of life. Its a nihilistic nightmare. There is no purpose and if you're fucked, you're fucked and the odds are against you. There is no spiritual support. No god. Can't even rely on our own species. Its a sick and cruel existence and it will enver be better.

 

i know exactly what you mean.
i just want to lay in bed until i die.

but at least you're trying,
as i am as well,
i wish you the best of luck
:hug:

 

I also piss the days away. If I am not on the computer I am laying in bed with the stereo blasting to help clear my head. As far as getting out to socialize it aint happening!! Part of my illness is social anxiety. I just don't do people. I have tried and couldn't concentrate so I looked like a damn fool standing there. Never again!!!~Joseph

 

its against natures will to kill one's self, but i feel darkness taking over more. if i cannot change my life within the next five years and get out of this craphole i live in, and get away from all the people i ever knew, i will off myself, and i will not think twice about it. i want to be happy, but i do not fear death and i have no respect for myself. i feel i could quite easily do it once my will has gone

 

Yes, and I can't wait for it to be over.

 

I am both sick and fed up.

But you never know!
You've begun to try... why quit now?
Best of luck!

 

Im fed up with it all. THe crappy job, the lack of friends, the constant drinking from my dad, the guilt trips from my mum, not being able to find a girlfriend.

Its just too much. The stress on me has snapped my resolve to fight it, I just accept everything now and I always expect the worst out of life, so Im never disappointed.

Thing is, I want to have hope for something better, I just feel like life has choked it all out of me.

 

Keep fighting m8. Life can get really hard at times but if we give up then where do we go. As for girls they tend to know when you're trying too hard and that can make you look a bit desperate. I've always found I'm more successful on the romantic front when I'm not really looking but I'm just being myself. Also there is a lot more in life than love. Try getting into some other kind of things where you can meet new people. Let love find you. Best of luck.

 

Can't get any pleasure or drive out of anything. My mind is so broken that even things which seem to please normal people and could potentially be fun are translated and broken down by my brain into nothing more than sequences and patterns, inevitably turning everything into chores. And it doesn't even do that right, considering the rituals my mind demands of me ultimately results in failure. I can't even remember the last time I actually learned something new or was able to eat new food or enjoy new music.

I believe I'm now on my 34th medication and 9th therapist. And still everybody is trying to address the problem with my brain as mere self-esteem issues and social interaction problems.

 

goodluck to all those trying all i do is lie in bed hide away and browse the web for ways to end it if your brave to fight it well done but i dont have the energy anymore

 

I too have spent many many hours browsing the web for 'an exit' as I ponder my fate and gather my thoughts.

The 'usual suspect' suicide websites are absolute garbage, with pseudo-intellectuals pontificating over eleborate mechanical contraptions which no-one is seriously going to bother with as an 'out' together with gibberish ramblings about a 'mythical cocktail' which it seems is only available to the CIA or MI5.

Add to the mix the usual f*ckwit attention-seeking teenagers whittering on about dating hassles, and it's basically hours wasted wading through moronic crap in an effort to find something worthwhile.

 

me me! I too have very little - actually zero - friends.

I just don't want to try so hard, like I am a beggar u know? I do try but not working.

Anyway, I just got a job. I am just going to work till I save up enough money for a Euro Grand Tour and during the tour, I am going to fulfill my list of '100 things to do before I die'. After that...

So right now, I am just putting off the inevitable. It is already the end for me actually. I have already given up trying to make friends or have a life. It won't work. It just won't. Better to give up all hope than to be once again disappointed and humiliated. Can you say 'Dead Man Walking'? That's me.

Teck