Yeah, I was in Grief counseling for a week, but that didn't help. I didn't find him, but I was the second person to see him (his sister was the first). I guess that's one reason it's bugging me so much. He overdosed on Heroine, and I didn't even know he was doing drugs. Kinda bugs me that I couldn't do anything about it.
It's been almost a month since his suicide, I know it will take longer, but I just wanna stop feeling like this.
I started dating another guy, which was a bad idea, because he's pretty much a man whore. And I feel bad breaking up with him.
Anywho........another day and I will freak. I feel like I should still hold on to my new boyfriend, for support, because if I lose him, I don't know what I will do.
*SCREAMS*
What now????