God... I am so disgusting. It is no wonder that no girl has ever even looked at me in "that" way. There is not a single good thing about my appearance. I am not exaggerating. I am truly disgusting to look at. Almost any ugly thing you can think of applies to me. I've been constantly told how ugly I am. No one would ever want to be seen with me. It's just not worth living a life of being ugly and disgusting. I can't even change the things that are wrong with me short of extremely expensive surgery that I would never be able to afford. I will be alone forever, looked down on for my entire life. I have my "tools" sitting in front of me all the time. One of these days I'm just going to snap and do something to myself impulsively. I can't wait for that day. I wish I could build the courage to do it and save myself so much pain that will surely be coming in my life.