I just can't see the allure in it. I am apparently, the crazy one for refusing to drink alcohol at all, this is especially when I live in the West where drinking is accepted and maybe even required to be socially accepted in some circles. I just feel it is absolutely filthy, there is nothing good to it at all and everyone who drinks is disgusting. Why would I PAY money to kill brain-cells, to lose control over myself, to become impaired? Just because all the other idiots are doing it and I have to do it to fit in with them? What kind of crazy world do I live in where this behavior is not only normal but encouraged? I know that all sounds so extreme and I must be a lunatic. I guess I got this phobia from several times when my dad over-drank and did dangerous and stupid things. So I vowed never to drink alcohol ever in my entire life. I have only drank one time a few months ago, one margarita and I feel just so disgusted and sinful for doing it. I wish I could turn back the clock and have never drunk the fucking thing. I can't believe I broke that promise from a little, stupid peer pressure and I hope I'll never do it again. God, I feel so dirty. Does anybody else feel the way I do?