So I originally started writing this in the depression forum, but it ended up feeling a little off-topic. I've no idea where to put this, hopefully this will do. Also I don't really know how to phrase this properly, so I'll do what I can and hopefully it'll make sense. So I look around at the threads here, and I remember how I was ~18 months ago when I first joined SF, and I compare all that to how am I now. And now I'm a lot better than I was. I still feel depressed, I still feel suicidal, I started self harming again, but none of it is as severe as it was, like I don't cut as deeply or as often, I don't really plan suicide I just sort of think about it. And I look at the people here who are really having problems, who are really struggling, and I feel like a fraud. I guess in some ways, this looks like progress. Except somewhere in the middle, between where I am now and where I was in December 08 or whenever, I was much better than this. So I've sort of gone from being really depressed and suicidal to being fairly normal to being kind of vaguely depressed. So I just feel like a fraud, and it's not just people like those here at SF I'm defrauding, it's me as well. The old me, who really was depressed and really did need help. I don't really know what I'm trying to say, I guess I just wonder if anyone can relate to these experiences.