I joined this forum yesterday because honestly life has gotten too hard. It's difficult to get up, dressed and go to work. Even more difficult to take care of my children. I was very depressed at work today and was contemplating 'things' when this guy that is a regular where I work shows up and we chatted for a little bit. Out of the blue he started telling me about how he is head paramedic in his town and last night a young girl, 16, comitted suicide. He told me how her father found her in the basement where she hung herself for no apparent reason. He told me about how distraught her parents and younger siblings were over the complete sudden and unexpected loss. This guy, who didn't know her or her family until the event, was nearly in tears. He was completely despondent over the situation and he just kept saying, 'I don't understand why she would do something like this. She had her entire life ahead of her.' It just completely threw me for a loop. I stood there staring after him as he drove away dumbfounded. Here I was thinking about killing myself and out of absolute nowhere this man is talking about it. I don't believe in god or anything but I can't help but feel that this was a sign from somewhere telling me not to do it. I wanted to share this and hope that maybe it helps someone because all I could think to myself was if this guy who didn't know this girl was this distraught over her death what of her family? I had no idea that if I killed myself it would impact other people so much. I don't want to do that to my family let alone innocent people who have to deal with the 'messy details' of cleaning up. I just hope this helps someone else out because it is true. We all have our lives ahead of us and it's hard and it sucks but it is what you make it out to be.