my brother tortured me when I was younger, my life was spent in fear of him and trying to please him, he would tell my parents he wanted something and if he didnt get what he wanted he would hurt me and basically use me as a hostage, my weekends growing up where basically me baracading myself against the door and my brother coming in and hurting me for no reason other then he is a piece of shit
I think about these things now and I just want to kill him, like I want him dead 6 feet under, I dont want him to have a funeral, I just want him tortured to death
The last time I prayed for anything was about 4 years ago when my brother and dad were away and I was at home and I prayed to god that they would die in a car crash, but of course there is no god so that didnt happen
But yea, I hate my brother, he is the source of all my problems, my life has essentially gone into the shit in the 4 or so years since I have finally moved out of my house and I really dont know what to do
I cant understand how my parents allowed this to go on I hate them so fucking much
It just doesnt seem fair how my life is over and the source of most of my problems is my brother, he is healthy now and he isnt happy but he is healthy, and I am no longer healthy and I am fucked up, how is he allowed to live and I am allowed to suffer
is there a point where revenge is needed, I dont understand how these things were allowed to go on and my parents did nothing, he fractured my skull on at least 3 occasions and I think there were other times, I just cant comprehend what has happened to me in my childhood and what has happened to me since my childhood between all the mental things I put my self through and these horrible physical problems I have been dealing with
I just can not comprehend my life, can not fucking comprehend it
Do I get revenge on him, do I sue him, do I sue my family?
I think about these things now and I just want to kill him, like I want him dead 6 feet under, I dont want him to have a funeral, I just want him tortured to death
The last time I prayed for anything was about 4 years ago when my brother and dad were away and I was at home and I prayed to god that they would die in a car crash, but of course there is no god so that didnt happen
But yea, I hate my brother, he is the source of all my problems, my life has essentially gone into the shit in the 4 or so years since I have finally moved out of my house and I really dont know what to do
I cant understand how my parents allowed this to go on I hate them so fucking much
It just doesnt seem fair how my life is over and the source of most of my problems is my brother, he is healthy now and he isnt happy but he is healthy, and I am no longer healthy and I am fucked up, how is he allowed to live and I am allowed to suffer
is there a point where revenge is needed, I dont understand how these things were allowed to go on and my parents did nothing, he fractured my skull on at least 3 occasions and I think there were other times, I just cant comprehend what has happened to me in my childhood and what has happened to me since my childhood between all the mental things I put my self through and these horrible physical problems I have been dealing with
I just can not comprehend my life, can not fucking comprehend it
Do I get revenge on him, do I sue him, do I sue my family?