I feel I've accepted depression as a fact of life. My life is just going to work, coming home, eating, sleeping, repeat. My job isn't very hard or rewarding. It's not really stressful but I just don't like working. I'm really pretty lazy. In the past 2-3 years I've gained about 150 pounds. I have no motivation. I can't seem to socialize well. I get along with people but I'm just not good at conversation. I just can't seem to start and maintain conversations with people. Other people at work chat, bond, and make friendships while I keep to myself. I figured getting a job and being on my own would help but it didn't. I never had a girlfriend and I just feel too awkward and too unappealing to make a relationship with a woman. I've just resigned myself to the fact I'll be along the rest of my life an with it comes the mood swings of depression. I pretty much only go out of the house for work and that's it. I'm really not even sure the point of this thread. Just kind of seems like rambling.