Yes. The more time I'm here (as in, alive on this planet) the more I realize how much better it is to strive to find a way to accept that certain facts of life suck and are despicably unfair as hell. Seems to be a lot better to just not resist life as much as possible. I do all I can these days to just not get sucked into feelings about anything, it sux to not feel the good ones as much but it doesn't ultimately feel worth it when the down ones are so extreme. It is just too draining, have never really had a high energy level anyway and getting caught up in bs nonsense only makes it even worse. I try to just focus more on the things I'm grateful for and that make me happy and that does seem to help a bit. Makes life feel a bit more peaceful and bearable at least.
Sorry to both you and lost in a fairytale that you are feeling so hopeless about things, you both seem like nice, kind, caring and good people so I really hope you will feel better and more hopeful soon.
