More days than not I am suicidal. I see a psychiatrist, a therapist, etc. My husband knows I am struggling but even doesn’t even know to what extent. My siblings don’t know. They would be astonished if they knew what has gone on the last 3 years as I am the ‘responsible’ one....the one who handles my elderly mother’s affairs, etc. I Was always the one who was the most put together then my world crashed.
Realistically, I know I should be hospitalized or in an intensive outpatient program but embarrassment keeps me from admitting that......not to mention fear of hospitalization itself. I also fear embarrassing my husband, my children, etc....though I am sure they would rather see me hospitalized then not here at all.
Anyone else ever feel this way? Thanks.
Realistically, I know I should be hospitalized or in an intensive outpatient program but embarrassment keeps me from admitting that......not to mention fear of hospitalization itself. I also fear embarrassing my husband, my children, etc....though I am sure they would rather see me hospitalized then not here at all.
Anyone else ever feel this way? Thanks.
