I am just too good at hiding my emotions, I never show that I am deeply depressed. Even my family thinks everything is OK even though I have been days away from death, and when ***** died I never showed that I was sad, neither did my brother, it's just the way we are and I am fine with that. I just wish someone would notice that I am in pain, because I am never going to say it to anyone, and I am too good at hiding it. It would be really cool if someone would just walk up to me and know everything about me. Anyone wished for something like that?