I know the feelings too too well...:sad: I'm a single mother (custodial parent) with three girls: 19, 17, and 14 - the oldest of whom is supposed to have moved out three weeks ago and also she's been diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder:ohmy: and acts it for sure!:blink: :sad: None of the kids gives much help with chores and they're always fighting and screaming. Coming home from work is more stressful than going to work. At work there's peace and money, home there's always a huge mess and fighting...like living in Iraq only without the IEDs and dead bodies...so far.:sad: Last evening the youngest was so bad I was ready to blow my brains out, no kidding. I had to take a clonazepam and stay in my den til I stopped shaking and bawling. I got some good advice recently (which helps and doesn't help...yet). I was quoted the Bible verse about "training up a child in the way they should go and when they are old they will not depart from it." I said, "yeah, but they weren't brought up this way and did/do not come from that bad of a dysfunctional family". And my friend said: "when they are OLD.... they're not OLD yet...":dry: Oh yeah, that's true... but do I have to wait til they're THAT old before I have some peace? By then they'll be out of the house anyway...:dry:
I'm taking it one minute, one hour, one day at a time - cause that's all I can do; that, and take my meds and talk to a counselor/Pdoc regularly... and pray to God to give me the strength to handle it...:sad:
Keep coming here and venting. Scream and yell and foam at the mouth about it, at least the rage and frustration won't build up inside you til you reach the point of no return.
sending love and hugs and strength and hope - lots of hope,
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