Could you maybe go there and visit with your Aunt, or stay there for the time being? Or temporarily… until you get situated--& then decide what you want to do? That’s what I would maybe do, while impractical. It may provide me with an experience, of where I’ll have learned something: either I’ll like it, or I won’t. Unless it’s a definite “no.” (on that plan)
Biggest thing to do, is not to panic. If you can? That will help you to be able to make clear-headed decisions. . . Not easy to do, I understand. And try not to beat yourself up, as I don't see any of these problems as your issues - in terms of, the responsiblity of/or for!
Take care,
& Good luck!