Attempt number 17. Lately, I've been experiencing apathy, on a scale which worries me. Not just "I don't wanna go to work/school" apathy, but "Getting out of bed is too much. Just lie here.". Even getting up, walking a step or two, and getting in front of the computer takes almost titanic effort, and actually typing something, and reading, takes more. This has gotten to the point where I can't be arsed to live, but actually killing myself is too much of an effort.