See asked me to post this for her (Nurse)we dont normaly allow these things but it was the only way to get her cooperate. "In a moment of desperation I have been a selfish fool not only have I failed in taking my own life but I have upset those who cared. I feel very guilty, pathetic and embarrassed. Ironically I also feel wanted just a tiny bit because for the first time someone really cared, it gave me something to hold on to then again maybe I was just a fool grabbing at straw.Don't know why it mattered you are all strangers we have never met, why would you care if those around me don't even know I exists, why did it keep me from letting go I was so close? I really am sorry and at the moment I am more confused than ever, I have damaged my body and don't feel so good right now,Have to stay in hospital a few days. Just wanted to let you know in case someone cared or wondered I don't remember much form the past 24hours. At the moment my mind is driving me insane and I am so tired. So all I can do now is pray for insanity and say I am sorry please don't forget me please tell me it was not my imagination or a hallucination that you really do care?"