Apparently I Should Never Have Been Born

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by DLBach, Dec 13, 2011.

  1. DLBach

    DLBach Well-Known Member

    The end of August, I left SF because of what I perceived as insensitivity of others in some threads. Had those things happened when I was really bad off back in April and May, I probably would have gone ahead with my plans. I have just come out of a bout of fighting this wretched dragon that has invaded me and am having the usual residual effects, mostly feeling that this can not in any way be considered quality of life. I found myself yesterday trying to force myself into the Chanukah spirit and mindset. As I attempted to write a poem for Chanukah, I got more and more frustrated. How can I write about miracles when I stopped believing in them long ago. I thought that perhaps I should return here and, without getting involved to any extent, find some sort of camaraderie. What I find is things have changed. I couldn't find any of my previous posts except by sifting through everything. I found my farewell post and saw that it had been used as a means of hurt or others. One of which has now closed their account. The only people who have benefited from my existence are those who make money from me, doctors, pharmacies, landlord, etc. I really should never have been born, especially since no one really cares that I am alive.

    Please forgive me for all the hurt I have caused within this forum.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hun i am glad you are here reaching out okay for support you need and deserve We all make mistakes we all do things or say things we regret later Just know things have changed here hun time to make new friends okay hugs to you