(In which I play devil's advocate)
I've had a bit of a problem with bullies for a while now. It seems I'm always being treated like shit at some point in my life. I've always assumed it was them being assholes, which is sort of the case.
But in the 9th grade, when I introduced myself to a couple of bullies, I told them that I was a loser who had no friends, had never had a girlfriend, was alone all the time, and never had sex. I'm playing devil's advocate here, but maybe if I never projected the image of a loser onto them, then maybe I would've never been bullied. It's still quite ridiculous for them to treat me like shit based off of that, but maybe it's true. I just needed more confidence.
This is a little creepy, I guess, but I was looking at pictures of him on Facebook four years later. He looks so happy and "cool" I guess. He's got a lot of friends and was always super popular, even though he was an asshole. I mean...even though he acted like shit towards me, he never presented himself as a loser. I hated his shitty sense of humor, but he was always making stupid people laugh. Maybe that's why people loved him and not me. He sure did think he was hot shit though, even though he was a dick (is that ironic?). I felt suicidal from that and it's partially the reason why I threatened to kill myself and spent 3 days in a mental hospital.
Then in the 10th grade, I was obsessively in love with a girl. Then she went around telling everyone about how weird and creepy I was. I was suicidal from that too. Obviously, had I not done that, no one would've talked shit about me. I still feel it was somewhat bullshit though, since I really was suicidal and the grand majority of people talking about me didn't even know me. They hadn't seen me before. Were they justified in treated me like worthless shit? That continued in the 11th grade.
But in the 12th grade, I met a couple of girls. They were really cool with me at first, invited me to games and such. But once, we went to a game, and there was this chick talking crap about me. I wasn't feeling it. I couldn't concentrate on the game or have fun, all I could do was get angry at her talking crap. They didn't like me as much after that. The final straw was when I accidentally smashed one of the girl's feet with a door, attempting to flirt with her. Obviously I'm a bad flirt, but they hated me after that. Why should they have given me the benefit of the doubt? I was a loser then.
There was also another girl who treated me like shit that year. I just remember trying to talk to her and failing. She was a bit mean and she didn't make me feel well at all. She, like the kid who bullied me in the 9th grade, was really conceited and acted kind of shitty, honestly.
I know there are judgemental assholes in this world who feel the need to put others down for their own amusement and the need to make themselves feel superior, but should I concentrate on making myself appear normal to the masses? I don't want to deal with bullies, which I'm pretty sure I'll have to deal with again someday. I can't stand people like that, so what should I do when I get treated like shit? Do I agree with them and go along with it just so they can shut up? I'm rather sure that just inflates their ego more. Their minds are as balloons and praise is the helium that gets them so high up.
I've had a bit of a problem with bullies for a while now. It seems I'm always being treated like shit at some point in my life. I've always assumed it was them being assholes, which is sort of the case.
But in the 9th grade, when I introduced myself to a couple of bullies, I told them that I was a loser who had no friends, had never had a girlfriend, was alone all the time, and never had sex. I'm playing devil's advocate here, but maybe if I never projected the image of a loser onto them, then maybe I would've never been bullied. It's still quite ridiculous for them to treat me like shit based off of that, but maybe it's true. I just needed more confidence.
This is a little creepy, I guess, but I was looking at pictures of him on Facebook four years later. He looks so happy and "cool" I guess. He's got a lot of friends and was always super popular, even though he was an asshole. I mean...even though he acted like shit towards me, he never presented himself as a loser. I hated his shitty sense of humor, but he was always making stupid people laugh. Maybe that's why people loved him and not me. He sure did think he was hot shit though, even though he was a dick (is that ironic?). I felt suicidal from that and it's partially the reason why I threatened to kill myself and spent 3 days in a mental hospital.
Then in the 10th grade, I was obsessively in love with a girl. Then she went around telling everyone about how weird and creepy I was. I was suicidal from that too. Obviously, had I not done that, no one would've talked shit about me. I still feel it was somewhat bullshit though, since I really was suicidal and the grand majority of people talking about me didn't even know me. They hadn't seen me before. Were they justified in treated me like worthless shit? That continued in the 11th grade.
But in the 12th grade, I met a couple of girls. They were really cool with me at first, invited me to games and such. But once, we went to a game, and there was this chick talking crap about me. I wasn't feeling it. I couldn't concentrate on the game or have fun, all I could do was get angry at her talking crap. They didn't like me as much after that. The final straw was when I accidentally smashed one of the girl's feet with a door, attempting to flirt with her. Obviously I'm a bad flirt, but they hated me after that. Why should they have given me the benefit of the doubt? I was a loser then.
There was also another girl who treated me like shit that year. I just remember trying to talk to her and failing. She was a bit mean and she didn't make me feel well at all. She, like the kid who bullied me in the 9th grade, was really conceited and acted kind of shitty, honestly.
I know there are judgemental assholes in this world who feel the need to put others down for their own amusement and the need to make themselves feel superior, but should I concentrate on making myself appear normal to the masses? I don't want to deal with bullies, which I'm pretty sure I'll have to deal with again someday. I can't stand people like that, so what should I do when I get treated like shit? Do I agree with them and go along with it just so they can shut up? I'm rather sure that just inflates their ego more. Their minds are as balloons and praise is the helium that gets them so high up.