I ask because I'm 36 and life is just to hard to deal with anymore. I've always had depression and anxiety issues all my life and did try to commit suicide a few times but was to scared to go through with it. Nothing has turned out the way I thought it would growing up. At 36 I figured I would be married, have kids and none of that came to pass, only disappointment and failure. All my life I've been a piece of trash and will probably always be and most people treat me that way especially now. My father who was a Vietnam Vet tried to kill himself in front of me when I was 8, he was drunk and having a flash back about his buddy that was blown to bits from a mind and crying that it should of been him. Then at 17 my councilor who I was very close with, she was almost like my mom, killed herself by over dosing. It still haunts me to this day. I don't what I'm trying to say, I guess I just wanted to get that out. I don't want to live in this evil, selfish world anymore and can't stand my worthless existence day in and day out. Thanks for listening, sorry If I'm taking up space here.