Do you have things that help you, at least temporarily, feel better and stop thinking about suicide, stop having suicidal thoughts? I do, some, and it is often short-lived and I lapse back into thinking about killing myself, but it still helps at the moment. Some of my things I really enjoy: Orchids -- right now, I have 3 cymbidiums in bloom, as well as a number of phaleonopsis. I took the cymbidiums to work so I can enjoy them in the office, and they look very impressive when clients come in. Music -- I'm fairly diverse in my tastes, as long as it is recent, 1990s or later, but I enjoy a smattering of 80s music from time to time, since I came of age in the 1980s. I like pop, alternative, contemporary country, and certain rap and hip hop and r&b artists. Some of my absolute favorites that I play to death -U2, Bon Jovi, Green Day, Eminem, Lady Antebellum, Luke Bryan, Faith Hill, Duran Duran, Daughtry, Rihanna, Rascal Flats, The Script, Sheryl Crow, Sarah Maclaughlin, and Keith Urban. I listen almost all day while at work, and when I'm working out. Exercise and fitness. Cycling is pure joy, a sense of freedom, an escape from my problems. My goal for the upcoming season, March/April through November, is 5,000 miles. And I want to do my first Century ride (100 miles) - I have come close, 87 miles. I am also in to swimming, running, boxing, strength training. I want to take tennis lessons next summer (because I'm pretty sure I wont' off myself). My animals -- a dog, diamond doves, various fish, some firebelly toads, and hermit crabs and a tank of red fiddler crabs. I just set up the red fiddlers about a month ago, and I love them -- their antics remind me of the Three Stooges. Gardening -- not really the season, but I do a lot of that in season Cooking -- not much time for that now, but I'm a really good cook, if I do say so myself. Home improvement projects - a lot of satisfaction from doing things myself. You???