Are You Affected By Numbers?

[I Love Tomorrow]

Are you affected by numbers or have ever gotten into numerology? In terms of suicidal thought, do they help or harm you?

I used to be quite superstitious and what I thought certain numbers meant in my life really effected my mental health. I'm curious if anyone else has ever dealt with this and/or what did you do about it. I'll give some examples from myself;

I hope this doesn't violate the rules on the forum, but there is a thing or belief called 'The 27 club' and this really affected me at the time. My first serious attempt with bad consequences happened at age 27, and I've met others who have done the same. Over the years, certain numbers have 'spoke to me' or were more obvious than others, but none more than the numbers 7 and 9 for some reason. It's like they mean something to me, I'll cover more of this later.

The Number 23. When this movie came out I was infatuated with it because I was(wait for it) born on the 23rd. I thought at the time it meant something evil, I thought I was evil and meant for suicide. 1984. I was born in the year 1984, the beginning of the end, the last in line, the book 1984 big brother, I took the movie Ghostbusters seriously, all of this used to effect me. For many years in a way I followed the superstitious rumors that the world would end on this date, at this time, etc. And of course none of it was true I know now.

For many years, I was and I guess still am afraid of 7 and 9, as I believed I would die on a date with a 7 in it. Seven to me whispers 'separation' or leaving, and nine says 'ending' or final. People say things like 'lucky #7' or 'unlucky #13' I'm sure you've heard of things like that before. But when I got rid of religion in my life, most of the superstition left with it, and many of these bad feelings I had. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't at all superstitious anymore as I think everyone is at least a little bit, but now I don't really see numbers for the most part as meaning something anymore. And even if they did have a meaning, like many of the mysteries of the world I will never know or find out what they mean, so I'm not looking for it anymore. I think if you are looking for meaning in numbers or patterns in life in general, than you will find it as your brain writes a narrative for it to make sense, of which it really doesn't. I consider it a road to madness now and try to avoid it, but it's still there a little bit.

So what do you think, any of this make sense of have you dealt with this?
Oh no, I see I wrote this today on the 17th. Maybe it means something, most likely it doesn't

BTW, this thread I would also like to have your experiences with tarot or fortune telling if you have any in terms of dealing with suicidal thought

 

[Javier]

I have the same feeling with the number 7, as well as the number 13. I don't know exactly why, but I prefer to avoid them like the plague. I'm very superstitious and I'd like to avoid bad luck as mush as possible wn.

 

[1Lefty]

For my numbers, I like 3, 7, 11, I think are good numbers for me
I don't have unlucky numbers, or any that have a negative meaning

I had a girlfriend who was an astrologer, she worked up my chart, and comparing it with hers, said we were really compatible (I agreed), but that we would fight. I agree with that part also, so despite our compatibility, we're not even talking anymore. Take that as you wish, concerning the accuracy of astrology. I don't have enough experience to accept, or refute, anything concerning it.

I have a deck of tarot cards that I occasionally look at. Not so much that the future can be told, but in reading the cards, that may unlock some thoughts within me. So I kind of use it as a tool, another technique that can prompt me as I interpret personal events.
I find it really useful that way.

peace

 

[BarryW]

I like even numbers better than odd numbers. When I look at the calendar or clock, depending on the number of even vs odd numbers, it impacts how I feel. Like you said, I recongize this probably makes little sense to most people, but I've been like this for decades and don't expect it to stop.

 

[Fbr27]

I'm obsessed with reaching milestones.

But I don't have fixation with numbers

 

[I Love Tomorrow]

Thank you all for the replies.

There was a time when I was trying to keep an open mind and find ways to deal with my suicidal thought, so I went to someone who was into numerology/ tarot and fortune telling. I would say I don't really believe in any of that now, and would say that I don't believe anyone(who's mortal anyway) can tell anyone's exact future based on some cards, numbers, palm reading, etc. But there are some I believe who can be very good at reading the present and past, at least they appear to be able to do so.

I like even numbers better than odd numbers

My grandpa used to say something similar like 'even years are better than odd' or maybe it was the reverse.

it impacts how I feel

Yes it really does, and I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I don't feel it as much as I used to but it's definitely still there to the point I think something in my brain is hardwired that way. I will act and think slightly different depending on numbers of, what day/month/year it is, what age I am, etc. I sometimes look at things like addresses or even what time it is and do the same thing. There's a lot of reference to certain times and numbers in American folklore, I'm sure I learned some of it from that.

I guess the point I would want to make is believing or 'feeling' something about numbers or superstition in general is not a bad thing, unless it causes one to hurt themselves or someone else. It's really easy to start believing something based on a couple coincidences even if you don't really know all the information on a subject. I also think there's wishful thinking or mental presets going on that can blur clear thought, at least there was in my case.