I posted this to enquire if anyone else is angry deep down. I am furious, and I think it is killing me. Cant be good for the ol ticker. Is it normal to visualise things like hitting people in the skull with a bat or an axe? And visualizing those things happening to you? Feeling like you deserve them? Like a "just get it over with mindstate"? Do you harbor feelings even if not permeanent to permenately hurt people? Is this justified?