I went to see my therapist the other day, after telling the Supreme Psychiatrist Overlord I was uncertain if I wanted to continue it and drop my meds. Well, after the worst SI episode yet I decided it would be best to continue the meds and go back to the office. I told my therapist that I didn't really want to talk about things and I have so much in my head I can't express it. I have darkness I don't want to tell her. I feel it inside but it's mine. I told her my SI is mine and it's something I can hang on to. I like the scars and it is my projection of my pain. I am tired of talking about this stuff because I know what the problem is yet there is no solution. I'm much older and my thought patterns are too developed. She says no. I say she's wrong.