Every time I face a problem my go to solution is suicide. The thoughts are upsetting but help me not feel trapped in pain and suffering. I've been having suicidal thoughts since I was 10 years old (9 years) so by now I feel like they are automatic thoughts and so much a part of me. What are your experiences? Has anyone been able to stop their chronic thoughts, even if it was for a short time? The best I've done was a minimal thoughts for a couple of weeks, but of course they are back.