argh i burnt not like before help

[Always Alone]

argh i burnt not like before help *trig

fuck fuck i did it again but different i know im in a pa right now i cant even think fuck its not as bad a burn not even down to fat but i did it different and it hurts so god damn much, and i like that but i cant controll this hurt and it wont stop when i stopped burning i tie tyowle rouned leg and poured metholeted spirt on it then set it on fire and it is hurt and it helpd so much but now it wont stop and it not help im suppost to be going to my mums soon and i can even walk normal i can do it but it makes bad it is only light burn but why like i have hospital tommorow and wont be happy with me fuck what now can i stop this no i let this build up another week in hospital and itll hapopen again so where what fuck

 

[Jenny]

Re: argh i burnt not like before help *trig

I'm so sorry that you feel so bad right now.. sounds like you're in a lot of pain with your burn injury.. is there any way you can get someone to look at it for you? Maybe go to your doctor? You say you're going to the hospital tomorrow.. maybe they will be able to give you something for the pain..

You seem to be hurting so much, both physically and emotionally. Do you know what triggered you in to hurting yourself? Is there anything you'd like to talk about?

Please try to take very good care of yourself.. i know it's easy to say. I hope things go ok at your mum's.. maybe tell her you have tripped and hurt your leg or something so you can get to lie down, or rest up on the sofa and not do a lot of walking?

Thinking of you
:hug:
Jenny x

 

[Always Alone]

Re: argh i burnt not like before help *trig

Thanks for that. I know its taken me a while to post, but I read your post before I had to go out, it helped, thanks.

The hospital noticed me trying to walk, and I got some help for it. It felt kinda weird to have to show it to someone, but It was hurting way too much to leave it. I can almost walk properly now.

Apologies for the lack of sense in my post, I'm suprised anyone could understand it, I was in a panic when I wrote that, still, just writing it helped me a little.