I don't even know where to start. I felt really bad leaning on my fiance even more because he is so busy right now, so I turned to some of my friends hoping they would atleast lend an ear. Instead, they just told me to not be depressed! They didn't seem to believe that I was really struggling with this. I feel so alone right now. Their solution to my depression, to try and get me drunk tonight. Because, of course, a sedative is going to help me right now. I've been to the doctor and gotten an Rx for a med that helped last time, but my parent's refuse to let me use the insurance, and there is no way that I can afford the Rx any other way. Gah! It is so tempting to take something before my friends drag me out tonight. I know what reacts with alcohol, just end it that way. I can't get the thoughts out of my head, and I don't think I want to anymore. I am tired of hurting, and I just want it to stop.