my mum - she loves insulting me, she can't get enough of it. slyly hinting that i'm useless and have never achieved anything and never will and that i don't deserve anything. amy - i can't make my mind up about her. i don't think i love her anymore but i can't help craving her, like cigarettes - perhaps since i've quit smoking she'll be my new addiction. sleep - i either sleep too much or not at all, what the hell is wrong with me!? cutting - yeh, something i've been trying to quit for 7 years now. can't get enough of it at the moment, it's fucking killing me. 135 cuts today.. god knows how many tomorrow! sex - yes, sex.. who remembers that?! i haven't had sex in a fucking long time :laugh: and now i'm lusting over amy. oh great! food - what's that now? yes, i've reached my goal weight. yes i'm below my goal weight. yes i can see red dots in front of my eyes when i work out too hard at the gym and i haven't seen a decent meal in about a while. yes, i'm loving it but hating it at the same time. money - you know what.. money could fix a few of my problems right now. if only. suicide, death, ceasing to live, the end - i fucking wish!