Don't give up.. Seek help..Therapy, a shrink, group therapy..There are always options and suicide is not one of them..Keep talking to us.. Beleive it or not there are members here who care.. I've never talked to you because I am an old fart and not many younger members want to talk to me..I have been dealing with this life for years.. Thru therapy and meds I have made it this long..You can do it also..