I really miss my Nan. both of them .. my mums mum died of cancer when i was just 8, but i was too young to understand but recently i've begun to wonder 'what if she was still here' 'she was too young to go' etc. and i dunno how to control it. my dads mum only recently died just over 8 months ago and to me it still feels like yesterday. i cant stop thinking about her and some times i think shes still in hospital and i can see her anytime i want.. but i cant. i wish i could stop thinking this coz i jus wanna be with her and its causin me to harm myself and be depressed. i just wish someone would help me.