I know its a common idea, but I like the picture of all of us wearing armour (psychologically speaking), the stronger you are the thicker and more complete your armour is, it takes a big hit to phase you, but like all armour, there are always gaps, and I thought I had plugged every hole, I thought, though my armour was weak in places, it was at least complete, but there are always holes, things that can happen, things people say, ideas, whatever, things that penetrate that armour with no resistance and cut right to the heart of you, and it doesn't need to be something profound or life-altering, just something you aren't prepared for, it can even be embarrassingly basic and trivial, if you haven't built up your armour, it hits home, and when that happens, when something gets past all your defences and hits home, its OK to reel from the hit, as long as you forgive yourself for your moment of weakness and get back up.
This isn't so much a message for anyone really, it is more of a declaration for my own good, sending it out there just for the sake of declaring it, my moment of weakness was OK, it doesn't mean anything, and can be forgotten in turn, except that it means I have some holes to plug.
I dont ask for any reply and dont expect I will explain the above if asked, in fact if a mod removes this whole thread tomorrow I doubt I would care much its just one of those times when it wasnt enough to just let the thought knock about inside my own head.
This isn't so much a message for anyone really, it is more of a declaration for my own good, sending it out there just for the sake of declaring it, my moment of weakness was OK, it doesn't mean anything, and can be forgotten in turn, except that it means I have some holes to plug.
I dont ask for any reply and dont expect I will explain the above if asked, in fact if a mod removes this whole thread tomorrow I doubt I would care much its just one of those times when it wasnt enough to just let the thought knock about inside my own head.