argh im so pissed off with myself right now. why do i do this? why did i think if i bought them that would make it safer. not safer, now i want to and i can. tonight is going to be bad i can tell. and im pissed off , i mad it this far through the urges and now i can tell..im just going to give in like i always do. and this is probably a meaningless rant but i dont care im that frustrated.