I'm really starting to feel helpless. Everything is wearing me thin. I've become numb. I really need a good cry and just can't seem to feel any emotions. Haven't been happy and the only reason I feel sad is that I know I'm the one standing between me and happiness. And yet I can't bring myself to change anything. I have tried in the past when I've felt like this. It takes a lot of energy and a few times it actually worked, but that feeling never lasts long. I've tried and failed so many times. I'm struggling with the why. Why try when nothing works, why meet people when they always let you down, why not just end the suffering and finally get some rest. Everyone in my life has always been too busy to talk. So I find myself at the end of my rope. I've been so lonely. I'm pretty sure I have anxiety, have never seen or talked to anyone about it. Every time I've tried I get worked up and end up just "sucking it up". I've been in quite a few relationships and every one has ended with pain. I actually just got out of one and think that's what set these feelings off. We were talking and everything was great, a lot in common, same morals, same goals. She said I was a nice guy, smart, cute, and funny. Then all of a sudden just stopped talking to me. Like no communication. She just called after about a week of not talking at all. She said she can't handle a relationship at this point. Which has left me lost and confused. If everything is going good then why stop. It just makes me feel like a failure. I feel like I did something wrong. Not really sure where else to turn. Figured I'd post on here and see if talking to people may help.