My world has fallen apart, the ex wins it all. I give up. Fuck it I dont want to kill myself!!! I just want to talk to someone who understands me!! Not the fucking crisis people, my mental health worker. But theres no one right now. And the feelings are too strong. I'm alone and will be for the next couple of hours. I cant dothis for the next couple of hours or even fucking minutes. And I'm beaten and have nothing, nothing at all to fucking fight with. Right now, it hurts so bad. Righjt now all I can think about are the pills and cutting or the gun. Right this fucking instant I want it all to stop. I dont want to sit here and die all alone. But then for so long now, it hasn't matter what I want. And that isn't about to change in the next moment or two. I cant hold on, its easier to kill myself than to even try. FUCK!!!!! Somebody pl;ease tellme what to do!!!