I am asexual. I am struggling to relate with my friends. Both are in relationships and have asked me advice or have just wanted to vent to....I've told them I'm the wrong person to be talking to. They know I'm asexual and they accept me, but I don't think they truly understand what it's like to live in my head. What's the worst is family asking me if I'm seeing anyone or if I've met a special someone...I can't tell them. They wouldn't understand especially my mother's sisters. I've always felt like an outcast when I was younger but now it's even more so. Thought "Hey, maybe I'm a late bloomer".. but I'm not. I've tried dating a man and a woman and both relationships ended in a week because I didn't really know what to do. I had no interest in having what people call "normal relationship". I couldn't live a lie by being heterosexual nor homosexual. It's gotten to point that I hardly talk to either of my friends anymore because I cannot comprehend their emotions and feelings because I've never experienced them before. I need help.