Ashamed to be here, on SF. I'm a member, but I don't deserve to be. I don't deserve the help that I get here, all the amazing people that I've met. I'm not an asset to the site - never have been, never will be. I'm sorry if I've ever made it look like I was. I'm too weak to go on without it, though. Guilt guilt guilt guilt guilt guilt. I don't deserve this. I shouldn't post. I shouldn't bother. Sorry.