Hi all, I'm new (not just to here but internet forums in general). While there are several factors in my life that are contributing to me joining the SF, the largest one has to do with sexual orientation. I in the last couple months have accpeted the fact that I find men sexually attractive. To be honest I do not know what I am concerning gay/bi/straight because I do not know what feelings are real and what feelings are denial or learned feelings. I think I still find girls attractive. I am 20 and in college. I have been on several dates and enjoyed them. But... I just don't know if that makes any sence. Recently though all I can think about concerning...fantasy for lack of a better word... is completely about men. I find a few of my friends attractive. I find all of this very destressing. I recently (last 2 weeks) have started cutting. I want to be straight, completely, with out creeping thoughts in the shadows of my mind. Please do not misunderstand I have no bad feelings for people that accept feelings such as this. It is just I personally do not want to have them. I suppose I just want some emotionaly support, or advice. though as far as advice goes I don't know what really can be said.