Sorry you are feeling so low and alone although please do bear in mind that while others here care we may not all be able to reply to your message instantly and we may need to go offline at some point.. but i guess you're feeling in general that no one cares. You said you've been there for others but when it comes to you needing help and support no one is there. I'm really sorry to hear that.. i hope you'll continue to reach out for help though. I didn't get to read your original first post but things do sound very tough. I realise it may not be the same as friends/family but i wonder if you'd feel able to phone a helpline for someone to talk to?
Hope the zopiclone will help with your sleep.. keep writing/talking if it helps. I know it's hard to believe but we do care.
Hugs to you.. :hug: Is there any way you can get a hold of more daily meds? I'm having trouble sticking to my daily schedule of taking the med I take, and whenever I go off schedule or forget, I get the message that I have forgotten for a while when I start feeling dizzy and getting headaches, etc.
had an appt for today, called to see if they would come to me...haven't eaten or slept since saturday or left my bedroom except to get my ass to work this morning...that didn't go well and back in bed now
It's not surprising that work didn't go well,your unwell right now.I feel the same way,99.9 per cent of the human race are desperate to live for as long as possible. It sounds evil but I've wished that an accident or sudden heart attack would take me so I could avoid having suicide written down as my cause of death and people thinking of me as a coward who couldn't handle life.
But we aren't cowards, are we? We struggle on and try to find something to get us to tomorrow. It's just so overwhelming sometimes. Then people take the piss because we need medication. Seems like a no win. Then there's all the people who 'love' us and would miss us...but where are they when we're so desparate?