everytime i show my whole self to other people. they would see me as weird or tired of me. even in my parents, i dont want to see them the part of me anymore because i dont want any people. i know they dont deserve it. they just do the wrong things, they thought before it was good for me. i cant anyone blame for myself. i need to be strong so i dont tempt again to meet anyone on net or kill myself. i hope the moderators dont delete my thread again.