I'm sitting here lost in my thoughts, wondering where I left my kit. These days keep getting harder and harder to deal with. The lack of professional helps is taking it's toll on me, but my insurance is refusing to cover the charges for anymore visits to see my psychiatrist. I feel as though a blackness has engulfed me and I can't find a light admist it all. I tried to talk to a family member but was brushed aside as just having an "episode" and "only looking for attention and that I need to stop". I wish I could stop but it's unbearably tough and I don't know where to start.