I had an appt with my Dr today. My intention was to discuss the suicidal feelings which seem to be getting stronger by the day. I wasn't expecting miracles but I didn't expect to come away feeling worse either. I know I am lucky as I already have a lot of professional support from my cpn & psychologist but I still feel like I am losing control & breaking down. The Dr asked if I was capable of harming myself & I told him I was. It's all ok though cos I don't live alone . He went on to say that he was at a loss of what to do next as I was already getting support from the cpn & psychologist. He knows the meds haven't shown an improvement in the 10 or so weeks that I have been taking them but he still wants me to continue with them. He says there is no point in changing them cos I have already tried the other meds that he would have suggested. Ho hum, he asked if I had ever seen a psychiatrist, I said yes, about 18 months ago. Did I feel they were any help? Evidently not seeing as they discharged me after a couple of sessions & I am no better for the experience. So that's his plan of action...keep going with meds, cpn & psychology. He will also refer me to psychiatry again, just for their input! What's the point though? I know myself that when I am in crisis there is no way in hell that I would ever phone my cpn. I'm just so over it all, it's like I'm dead already. The outcome of todays appt has just multiplied my suicidal feelings greatly.