so down tonite i can't seem to settle or get interested in anything, feel very anxious and slightly confused. i have what was my new family around me tonite like every night yet tonite i feel ignored and a stranger in what has been my home for the past 6 years. knew i was slipping so i thought i would have a hot bath and listen to some music on my laptop but youtube was slow loading so i couldnt and i got angry and upset, over a bloody website !!!!!!!! sometimes i seem to manage just about but not tonite, i feel like i just want to get into my car and drive away. god, everyone is in the room now but no one is speaking to me, they normally do, oh well seems i have done something wrong again.