I have been depressed on and off for years. Lost touch with friends, no family, my dad hates me for no reason. I recently hit an all time low. Moved away from my fiance after stress induced arguments. I love him to death and feel I've lost him cause I moved over an hour away to an unfamiliar place with an old friend who puts me down at times. My fiance and I both lost our vehicles and home in the process. I was able to land another job, but my heart is broken, I feel lost. I've lost hope and have recently wanted to end my life. I don't know what keeps me around. Not sure what to do, I fear of i seek help lose my 2 kids in the process.