For the past 3 years I have had a constant urge to urinate. 24 hours a day. Non stop. It started out of nowhere one day. I had a perfectly normal bladder and only had to think about the bathroom 4-5 times a day. Sometimes it's more manageable than others. Lately it's been really bad though. Sometimes I feel like I have to go urgently every 10-15 minutes. Very little comes out, because my bladder is empty. The only relief I am able to get is when I'm asleep at night. I've had every test there is. Urine cultures, blood tests, ultrasounds, MRIs, extremely painful cystoscopy and urodynamic tests. I've taken antibiotics, overactive bladder medication. I've tried avoiding caffeine and alcohol. I've tried everything and the doctors still don't know what's wrong with me. A couple have suggested anxiety, but this has been going on for 3 years straight. I can usually sleep 6-7 hours straight without having to get up to use the bathroom so that's something I've tried holding on to in the hope that it's just anxiety while I'm awake. But I feel it the second I wake up. I try to reassure myself nothing is wrong with me and nothing ever works. I started seeing a therapist 2 weeks ago and she wants me to see a psychiatrist (have an appointment for next week) to see about being put on some kind of anti depressant/anti anxiety meds. I'm afraid the medication won't help me, just like nothing else has. And then I'll be at a point where it's not necessarily physical and not necessarily psychosomatic/anxiety and then the last shred of hope I have left will have evaporated. I can't live the rest of my life like this. I think about wanting to die every single day. I'm 23 years old. I've already lost a good chunk of my 20s to this. This isn't life. I feel like I can't do anything anymore. The discomfort is always present. Anywhere I go I'm constantly looking for the bathroom. I don't know if it's all in my head or a real physical problem that the doctors can't cure/identify. But I'm almost at the point where I don't want to keep on going anymore.